Seeing The Deads

Am not working today. Horrible flu and fever. Series of non-stop vomiting. Not feeling good.

Last night i had a dream, a dream that brought me to see the deads. My grandpa, grandma & aunty whispered into my ears, trying to send some messages to other family members. That made my ears very itchy and pain. i was very troubled last night. i could not have a good night sleep. I woke up twice in the middle of the night and had some medicine.

I couldn't careless what messages they were trying to convey. At a moment, i saw three of them (grandma,grandpa & aunty)playing block games, building towers. That coincidently is my favourite game. Are they trying to tell me, "Come join us and we will play this game"? I saw aunty keep looking at me, smiling swiftly to me.

I did not tell anyone about what's happening. I know no one would believe it. I saw the image of my aunty vividly in the dream. Further, this is the 7th month in the Chinese Calendar. I try not to think much but sometimes we chinese do believe that in this 'Hungry ghost Month", they tend to come out and hunt for victims.

Earlier this month, i dreamt of my grandma, telling me to help her to search for my grandpa, as he went out early in the day and did not come back since then. Question is-where shall i find my grandpa if we are in two different worlds? Grandma was pulling my hand, begging me and refusing to let go until i promise her. When i woke up in the morning, i felt the numbness on my right hand. I am still feeling it till today. Possible due to i did not help grandma. I feel my fingers and arms are very weak. So weak and useless till i could not even carry a bottle of shampoo in my hand.

My friends and family knew about the numbness of my right hand but they aren't aware of what's happening. Oh, why must my grandma pick me as a victim? Do i still need to search for grandpa? Please release me.